After my castration, I am strictly disciplined by men/boys both at home and at work, and the result is that I have now successfully acquired all the needed qualities for being a girl....feminine, soft, dependent, timid, obedient and humble...I now kneel down immediately when I see a man/boy enter my room, either as a guest or as my client.
I think men/boys are so much superior to me, and I well deserve to be controlled, disciplined and for ever enslaved by men because I did commit that unforgivable original sin of being so shamelessly born with a cock, something I shouldn't have had, and for having had that I must pay for my sin by undergoing tough training to become the soft, feminine and obedient girl I so very much want to be. That is what Master said about my situation and He is so right !!
(After my castration, my arms became so very weak, so that any one of my boy students could keep in down and I just couldn't move, because all my arms muscles seemed to have gone.
The boys say that my new body...my girl's body...is very pretty, but they often prefer to admire my body in a beastly sort of way, in a setting in the dim light, like at a deserted carpark, and there they strip me naked, and play with my nipples, little penis clitoris and my butt.
I beg them not to do this kind of thing in the open...the police may come....but they insist that they need this frenzy to get themselves turned on, so they can get hard enough to fuck me.
Well, they are men....I am just a girl...I need to be obedient, though being fucked...almost like being raped...like this in the public...at a carpark is very unnerving and most humiliating.)
This is my room...yes quite small....but a stupid girl like me should be happy over having a room of my own, and it is so beautifully decorated with such romantic flavours and fragrance ---my gratitude to my students for helping me to re-arrange things and decorate my room each time they come to my room to give me my needed humiliation, spanking and fucking. I need all these to remind myself that I am no more a man. I am no more a university-educated teacher.
I am now...and must always remain...a stupid, ignorant girl with just primary school education. I am not allowed to speak English. If I ever speak in English, I must speak broken, ungrammatical English,....like 'them men me spank'...but I enjoy being so dumb, so ignorant, because men/boys care for me more, cajole me more...and treat me so very kindly....when I appear so helpless, childlike and stupid.
Sometimes I do have temper tantrums, getting angry when shouted at or being whipped by my students, but if I do get angry, I will use my fingers to stroke my big nipples and probe that little penis clitoris inside my pussy to remind myself that as a girl I need to be trained and humiliated to be soft and obedient -- and then I will be obedient and calm again, willingly accepting my needed feminization through being humiliated, spanked/whipped and then fucked by my clients, whatever their age -- for as long as they are male, they are my Masters and as a female slave, what I need is more punishment, humiliation and fucking, so I can become the feminine, soft and obedient girl I so very much want to be.
